For tingting to know...

I'm currently trying to go for J..but i dont think i can get her @ all..=)

But ever since the saturday..i felt that..actually i dont really know her..

Saturday i met her to grab present for u..some statements of her really shocked me..

We were looking @ clothes..she say she dont know wat to buy for guys..cos she dont really have much close de guy friend..only got 3..and she didnt say me..so r we REALLY not that close in her eyes? Sad..

Then later we walk around..she say she seldom choose present..normally is just chip in..unless if is very close de person..she will make..or really put in alot effort on it..after i hear this..i'm like..WAT ABT ME??? She didnt really gave me a average present..she got me a giant lolipop (which got alot lolipops inside) and think of treating me a meal instead..(which i think that meal will never come..=X) But the thingy is she say if really close then she will do something for the bday person! She like did none for me..so i'm = a nobody? Then y wanna like act as if we r close..and call me dad?

Next..cos i got ask her go out..then recently de outing..she say she cant go..not free..wanna spend more time on studying @ home..cos need to catch up with sch work..prep for exam..then i ask her whens exam..she say May..helo?! may is like 5mths later?! LOL..then saturday..i wanna test water..so i ask her how she normally spend the weekends..she say she will either go out with her sisters (as in jie mei) or just stay @ home and chill..but most of the time will go out..cos mum will ask her to do housework and study if she stays @ home..then i'm like..I THOUGHT U LAST TIME TELL ME U CANT GO OUT..WANNA STUDY..CATCH UP WITH SCH WORK?!?!

Then u know..i gave her a xmas present..its a box of chocolate..i made de..i still put in a box..and tie a ribbon..she received..then ask me y give present etc..and i told her is i made de..she dont have those surprised or happy de look..she just said thank u..how sad can it be?! I put in the effort to make..to buy box..to tie ribbon all for her..and she dont even have the minimum de appreciate! not even an sms to thank..i really very sian diao..so i sms her..she told me she got open it..but never eat it..more sad! I just put 9 pieces of chocolate..since u open le..@ least eat 1 piece to show some appreciation ar..she didnt even eat..she just say she will try another time..if its a normal friend give u..u will @ least try and tell ur friend how is it right..?

Talking abt sms..sometimes i sms her..and most of the time..until the no. 4 or 5 de sms..she jiu wont reply le..starting i feel like wat happen? i also never say offend her de thingy..or watsoever..just casual talk..and she never reply..then 1 day i ask her y..she told me..her hp abit sot..sometimes can send sms..but sometimes cant send out..but i noticed somethingy...everytime i'm with her..she got sms her jie mei..like on ur bday also..she keep sms like non stop..quite frequent..then i'm like..huh? hp never sot orh? Or ONLY sms me then will sot? HAHA..

How sad can it be?!?! I wrote @ fb..dont disappoint me..cos of her reaction when she got the choco..its just plain..she didnt even bother to give a small tiny bite...can u tell me y is she like that?? As in..if she can feel i'm interested in her..and wanna shoo me off by ACTING to heck care me..or turn me off by acting a cold shoulder..then she no need to go to that extend..i rather give up..let her achieve her goal to make me not to like her..and lets be friends..but if now, she is just being natural..like thats how she naturally will do to those unwelcomed de suitors..then i'm really disappointed in her lo..i rather she is acting..i dont wish any of my friends to be like that..

Thats all i wanna say..i know i'm silly..and stupid..shes just waiting for me to confess..and to reject me..but i never want to give her that chance..maybe i should just give up..so that we still can be friends not that paiseh..right tingting? =)