Year 2011

2010 is a wonderful year for me..excluding ns..haha!

2nd yr Ns, Ndp, wallaby, my bday, TY's bday and knowing some new friends marked great end for 2010..

2010..is also a yr that I realised I should be waking up..I realised that not all friend will be there for me...even though I treated them quite well...

I'm weak and vulnerable when ppl treated me badly...I'm still easily affected..cos I see friendship as a very important in my life...more important than alot of stuff...

I had enough...I'm sick and tired of all these...I want to be different..I want to be strong..I want to get used to loneliness and being independent...I just want to be a happy and simple me...I dont want to think that much anymore..I dont want to get hurt..

I also dont want love..I dont want to go for it anymore...but I still believe in love...I'm already tired of me putting lots of effort...and see no response...or even giving me a cold shoulder..Relationship should be somethingy mutual....so I will not do anythingy silly or stupid on another girl...unless she feels positive abt me...and that applies to friendship as well....no more Mr Nice..I will just be a quiet, a simple, a neutral and a nobody...=)

I no longer want to waste my time on relationship, on friendship and on any other stuff that isnt important..I want to focus on life after ns...ns left 6mths to go...I'm really happy abt it! But @ the same time...I'm worried abt life in Uni...I'm ultra worried that I'm not able to cope of the work there....So I got to stay focused...and buck up...work really hard...

My new year resolution will be...doing well for uni...realise and fulfilling my dreams...friendship isnt important to me anymore...neither is relationship...but I will never forget those important people in my life...For those who dont treasure me as who I am...I'm done..and I wont be treasuring them as who they are as well...trying hard...but its possible...

Love myself...before loving others....

Cheers 2011...=)