Happy 22nd..

It's 2nov in less than 1hr time..I always have this love-hate relationship towards bday...I cant help it, but I always become so emo when its near my bday...LOL..

Uni totally sucks..its so freaking demoralised to see FT doing all the work like no kick..while I'm so lost out there...Lots of work to do...lots of stuff to study and revise...but so little time..and I think I'm really getting older....I cant really stay up late...like wat I did in the past..

The people I met..were generally nice..but its so hard to find a person to be really good friends...maybe this need to take time...but I really in need of someone now..Sometimes I do need a person that I can share my thoughts and problems..without any worries..However everyone has their own thingy to do...commitments...And I dont wanna bother anyone out there..

So I tried being alone..for almost 3/4 of the sem...I was alone..sat @ the back of LT...after lect, went to library alone...not wanting to go lunch with classmates..I just dont wanna interact with anyone...I wanna be independent..I dont wanna have friends! Went movie alone, shopping alone, roaming around aimlessly alone...Then I realise, I really need friends...I need people around me...And the only time that I felt I'm needed = being with my poly mates...At least I found 'myself' when I'm with them...and I do hope, YOU, can join us more often..yes, YOU..

But I will still wanna learn to be alone...I can just do whatever I like...doesnt need to accommodate others...nor pretending to be someone else...

To MJ:

You got to stay focused, and not distracted by other stuff...many thingy out there..is way beyond ur control...If certain stuff doesnt go according to plan, doesnt work out...just ignore it...I know u tend to cry over spilled milk..but no point doing that @ all right? You focusing on thingy that are totally not important..compared to sch work....and regarding 'friends'? If they meant to be..they meant to be...lets not force..neither think too much over it...

Lastly, Happy 22nd....I HOPE..=)